[[*Pretty` Lil Me]]*

Saturday, June 25, 2011

[[SCHHHOOOOL and exam -.-]]

school's starting tomorrow and i think im th only one who looks forward to it . eventhough there's exams , THATS EVEN BETTER . hahaha , cos that means that i end really early , and i get to hang out with my friends ((: i seriously cant wait to meet yamin , amirah and rilham <3

tomorrow is MOB exam , and i really dont think i can make it . whatever i've been studying for th past few days cant seem to stay in my head . i completely forgot what i studied . cant remember a thing . AT ALL . so i can just say , im a dead bitch tomorrow cos IM SO GONNA FAIL MOB . ohh what th hell . as what Farhanah say , as long as i get A for my other 2 subjects , its so worth it . kay bye <3

[[Pretty`Lil Me]]*|10:00:00 PM|

Monday, June 13, 2011

[[friends or not ?]]

sometimes you thought you're such a loyal friend , until you read your bestfriend's blog and realise that you arent .

i wanna apologise , but at th same time , am i really th one at fault ? maybe it was my fault , maybe hers or maybe yours . god , i dont know . im lost . since when did i get close to you ? like , seriously ? and were you always there ? no . i was th one who was always there for you , when you wanted to commit suicide or felt like shit . but i remember , th first time i ever felt so helpless and worthless , you werent there . where were you ? all you said was , "jieh , dont be sad ):" . then , you were gone . and when you were suicidal , i stayed up one whole damn night , trying to convince you not to kill yourself. and do you remember , at th start of this year , you promised me that you'd never be so emo anymore . so now , what is this ? hell , your profile picture on facebook shows you bing really emo . what th hell ? yes , i know its my fault for not hanging out with you anymore . my fault for always hanging out with her . but you wanna know why ? because its so much more fun hanging out with her . hell , i can talk about KHULUQ as much as i want . and at least she wants to do something . all you want to do is to slack :3 im sorry , i know im being a bitch by saying all this , but this is what ive been feeling . i dont want to lose you as a friend . but im asking you now , am i really your bestfriend , or are you just using me ? think about it .

maryamDINZLY<3

[[Pretty`Lil Me]]*|7:31:00 PM|

Thursday, June 9, 2011

[[A New Beginning]]

i deleted all my previous post . why ? i dont know , guess im sick of my fucked up past ?
its not that im ashamed of it , just that when i read back my blog , i didnt wanna be reminded of th stupid shits i did . hell , i aint proud of them . ever . i learnt that in life , you make mistakes and you may think that you have learn from it , but truth is ? you never did . cause when th opportunity strikes , you'll do it all over again . yeaaaah , thats what happened to me . i thought i've learnt my lesson , but actually i didnt . so now ? i just wanna so-called "start over" my life . my life is MI is like a chance for me to be me . not to be somebody else , just ME . i dont wanna be some so-called bitch , or a skaterchick or whatsoever . i just wanna be , stop following th crowd . and if my friends dont like that , damn them all to hell (:

I AINT BORN IN THIS WORLD TO PLEASE ANYONE .

yeah my new quote ^^
that , and "i come , i fuck things up , i leave" :D
im done trying to please everyone . so what if im loud ? so what if i aint pretty ?
from th day that bitch fucks my life , im living life for myself . not for anyone else .
cause dammint , i got into plenty of shits for some friends , and in return what did they do ? backstabbed me . yeah , but then again , i think its worth it .

ohyeah , PROMOS 1 are coming , i aint prepared at all . too caught up in all this drama and shits and i should probably go study now xD hahaha kay bye .

love y'all <3
maryamDINZLY(:

[[Pretty`Lil Me]]*|8:02:00 PM|